ദു:ഖത്തിണ്റ്റെ ഹിമപഥത്തില്‍ നിണ്റ്റെ പഴയ കാല്‍പ്പാടുകള്‍

നിന്റെയീ കാല്‍പാടുകള്‍ എനിക്കെങ്ങനെ പിന്തുടരുവാനാകും?
അവയ്ക്കുമേല്‍ മറവിയുടെ ഹിമപഥം ഇപ്പൊഴും തുടരുകയാണല്ലൊ!
വര്‍ഷങ്ങള്‍ കൊണ്ടു നീ അകലങ്ങള്‍ തേടുമ്പോള്‍
ഓര്‍മ്മകള്‍ കൊണ്ടു ഞാന്‍ ആശ്വാസം തേടൂന്നു.
വീണ്ടും നീയെന്നോര്‍മ്മയില്‍
പേക്കിനവു കൊണ്ടൊരു ചുവര്‍ ചിത്രം വരച്ചു
എന്നില്‍ കത്തിയമരുന്ന ജീവിത പൂന്തോപ്പിലേക്ക്
ഒരു കൊച്ചു പനിനീര്‍ ചെടി കൂടി
സൌഹൃദം കൊണ്ടു നീ സമ്മാനിച്ചു.
പണ്ടു നീ വരച്ച ചിത്രങ്ങള്‍
മറവിയുടെ ഉറുമാലുകൊണ്ടു
മനസ്സിന്റെ ചുവരില്‍ നിന്നു മായിക്കുകയായിരുന്നു ഞാന്‍!
പകലിന്റെ ചൂടിലും, കനത്ത രാവിലും
മാറാല പിടിച്ച കിനാവിന്റെ കൊട്ടാരത്തിലേക്കും,
എന്റെ കിനാവിന്റെ കൊട്ടാരത്തിലേക്ക്,
വെറുതേ നോക്കി കൊണ്ടിരിക്കുകയായിരുന്നല്ലൊ ഞാന്‍!
ആദ്യമായി നാം തമ്മില്‍ കണ്ടപ്പോള്
‍നീ ആയിരുന്നതു പൊലെ
ഒരിക്കലൂടേ നിന്നെ കാണുവാന്‍
എന്റെ ഹൃദയം വെമ്പുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു!
കഴിഞ്ഞ വര്‍ഷങ്ങളത്രയും
മഞ്ഞില്‍ പതിഞ്ഞ നിന്റെ കല്‍പ്പാടുകളെ
പിന്തുടരുകയായിരുന്നു ഞാനെന്നതു നിനക്കറിയില്ലല്ലൊ!
ഇന്നു നീയൊരു നൊമ്പരമായി എന്നുള്ളില്‍പ്പിടയുമ്പോള്‍,
രണ്ട്‌ തുള്ളി ചുടു കണ്ണീരിലും പിന്നൊരു നെടുവീര്‍പ്പിലും
ഞാനെന്നെ അടക്കി നിര്‍ത്തുകയാണ്
ദു:ഖത്തിന്റെ ഹിമപഥത്തില്‍ നിന്റെ പഴയ കാല്‍പ്പാടുകള്‍
ഇനിയും മാഞ്ഞുപോകാതിരിക്കുവാന്‍... !

Mother's Love

Well tell mother, her smile is a light
Its a flashing gold-ray from a sourse
so brightBut if love is for love, then mother
You deserve the love, its blue,
so bluelike a sky after the rain,
huddle With a warm African sun,
so is your loveBut mother,
if joy was for joyThen please enjoy,
what I say on this reed
Is what is inscribed by my handYet mother,
the hands stretch,
all things meant
For love is love,
that which is blue
For if it is pure,
the pink roses on the wall map.
This is for love mother,
its for your due

DOUBLE LIFE

Do you ever fee like your living two lives?


One where your strong and brave and never cry.


One where you take care of every one and

help fix their problems so they can live their perfect lives


One where your smart and funny and sarcastic

And then theres your second life.One no one knows about.


One where your weak and scared.


Where your eyes are always red and

your pillow stained with tears.


One where you need people to take care of you or even notice you.


where your just a scared and hurting little girl.


But no one can ever know.

No one can know you cry and hurt because you have to be strong.


Because if your not strong ... no one will be.

In Another Lifetime

As we walk in this journey of our completeness,
Two empty hearts and souls agreed to embrace.
I can barely feel you in every inch of my existence,
But still, this lonely and bitter truth we have to face

We know from the start,
that we can never be with each other.
Thinking of that reality makes me cry a thousand rivers.
That's why we have to love now,
why need to suffer?

So that we'll not regret,
that it's only love we will remember.
You know that forever,
is what I want with you,
But this complicated world just won't let us be.
Hush my beloved;
forget about tomorrow,
Just let me love you like this,
'coz this is me.
Bathe me in the warmth of your love everyday,
'Coz we only have now,
but soon may part our way.
If there will come a time,
that we can no longer say,
"be mine",Let's just meet and love each other…
In another lifetime…

Couldnt wish you back again

There comes a time when we must say goodbye,
but memories of you live on and never die.
God saw you getting tired
so he wrapped his arms round you
and wispered "come With Me".
You didn't Deserve what you went thru
so he gave you a rest.
God's Garden Must be Beautiful,
He only takes the best.
When i saw you Sleeping,
so peaceful and free of pain,
i couldnt wish yu bak
To suffer that agen

NIGHT

this stillness upon thi shoulders gives thee 1 simple wish this wishes that the day soon be long upon night that thi shall speek to tho once more till then thee speakest of nothing to thee is only dreaming of when tho should speakest once more of once be know that i shall be a candle-waster for no i to convince this task of drinking only the poison that will keep me only in a pleasent dream with a cold drowsy humor with no pulse yet still alive as thi ever to be the still time its self could not take thee away from earth and yet wishes it shall as it thinks it needs to for the need shall get what it wants and the want shall get what it needs but in time i will speakest to tho once more for other wize i shall have no perpose of wakeing to the dreadfull sun instead of the heavenly moon this sightless does now and forever make a blissful wish that tho wilt not be up again but sadly i must return to my sleeping chamber for another dull affect of sightless non-sence i will only dream of the time we speak again

If I'm dead and in the grave, will you still love me?

If I look up, will I see the flowers you left above me?

When the worms begin to feed again,

it feels like when you loved me.

When decay becomes my closet friend,

will you be thinking of me?

I feel so alone since those days are gone

when I walked in the sun.

I gave up my chance, in the darkness

I chant while holding my gun.

If I knock on your door tonight,

will I be welcomed in?

Would you be willing to forgive me of my mortal sin?

I finally escaped the whispers and

lies in a life where I didn't fit.

I brought about my own demise

and ended here in this pit.

When the moon is full,

I can feel its pull and

think of the things I missed.

Regret is making it hard to think,

it's a shame it has come to this.

I just can't seem to make up my mind

but I guess that I've got plenty of time.


In this cold dark place of mine,


In this coffin, imprisoned inside,

still contemplating my suicide.

When the worms move,

I will think of you,

do you still love me?

Thoughts.....

The moonless night cupped me in its hands Without a star and only the light post to keep me company My thoughts are with you. With silence around me and only my footsteps for company My thoughts are with you. As the cool winter breeze caresses my face My thoughts are with you. As tears well up in my eyes my thoughts are with you.

ANGEL OF DEATH

Waiting in the shadow,a place unknown.
Lord of the underworld,but all alone.
Another new window,jolts my sense.
Events are in motion,the worlds grow tense.
All through their land,
a whisper in the air,
trees begin to shudderfrom the energy flare.
No longer a window,
both worlds are one,
no longer alone
until this deed is done.
The end of an era,
the atmosphere is sad,
the usual outcome,
few souls are all bad.
Back to the underworld
with a quick introduction,
I'm the angel of death,
this is soul junction
Realization kicks in,a new journey at hand.
This soul moves on,from this forsaken land.
Waiting in the shadows,a place unknown
I'm the angel of death,
completely alone.......

In my Rose Garden of memories
I know you'll always be
for though your're gone from this mortal world
In my heart you'll always be

My Lost Poem

I have just lost a poemsomewhere,

in my thoughts.
it was short,

but promising.

faint, like a dream.
poignant with a dash of acid

I lost it behind that faint mauve line of hills

Mattoru Koottam Snehaaksharangal മറ്റൊരു കൂട്ടം സ്‌ഃനേഹാക്ഷരങ്ങള്‍

എന്തു നിന്‍ മിഴിയിണ തുളുമ്പിയെന്നോ സഖീ,
ചന്തം നിറയ്ക്കുകീ ശിഷ്ടദിനങ്ങളില്‍.
മിഴിനീര്‍ ചവര്‍പ്പു പെടാതീ മധുപാത്രം-
മടിയോളം മോന്തുക;നേര്‍ത്ത നിലാവിണ്റ്റെ
യടിയില്‍ തെളിയുമിരുള്‍ നൊക്കു-
കിരുലിണ്റ്റെയറകളിലെ‍യോറ്‍മ്മകളെടുക്കുക
-കക്കാട്‌(സഫലമീ യാത്ര)

A lovers voice

A lovers voice

You walked lightly into my life.....Captivating and lovely to my mind,At first, I never cared who you wereNow I don’t know who I am without you,You kissed me.......I felt my world change.....You held meI heard my heart awaken......You loved meAnd my soul was born a new You walked lightly into my life Now my heart knows who you are And with every breath And every stepI take down lonely roads....Your hand is my staff...Your voice is my guide....Your strength my shelter....You’re passion my awakening....You walked lightly into my life,And all my pain....You took as your own,And all my fearsYou cast into the sea,....All my doubtLost in your eyes,You walked lightly into my life And no matter if you choose to stay or go,My life is forever changed, Just because you loved me.....For a moment in time.And because I choose To love you For the rest of mine......

Iruttntey Aathmavu!!! ഇരുട്ടിണ്റ്റെ ആത്മാവ്‌

അവണ്റ്റെ കണ്ണുകള്‍ ഇരുട്ടു കൊണ്ടുള്ളവ ആയിരുന്നു.......
അതവണ്റ്റെ ആത്മാവിണ്റ്റെ പ്രതിഫലനം ആയിരുന്നു............
എണ്റ്റെ മരണ ഗാനം കെട്ടൊരിക്കല്‍ അവന്‍ എണ്റ്റെയ്‌ അടുത്തു വന്നിരുന്നു............
തമ്മില്‍ നോക്കിയിരിക്കാന്‍ വേണ്ടി മാത്രം ഞാന്‍ അവനെ കണ്ടു!!!!

A Fond Kiss

A fond kiss, and then we sever;

A farewell, and then forever!
Deep in heart-wrung tears I'll pledge thee,
Warring sighs and groans I'll wage thee.
Who shall say that Fortune grieves him,
While the star of hope she leaves him?
Me, nae cheerfu' twinkle lights me;
Dark despair around benights me.
I'll ne'er blame my partial fancy,
Nothing could resist my Nancy;
But to see her was to love her;
Love but her, and love forever.
Had we never lov'd say kindly,
Had we never lov'd say blindly,
Never met--or never parted--
We had ne'er been broken-hearted.
Fare thee well, thou first and fairest!
Fare thee well, thou best and dearest!
Thine be like a joy and treasure,Peace.
enjoyment, love, and pleasure!
A fond kiss, and then we sever;
A farewell, alas, forever!
Deep in heart-wrung tears I'll pledge thee,
Warring sighs and groans
I'll wage thee!

Robert Burns

BEAUTIFUL LOVE

Beautiful Love

If I could spend a day with you,
we'd never get enough of each other's company.
We'd hold hands as we strolledalong the beach
and we'd talk about everything.

If I could spend an evening with you,
I'd cherish each minute that we're together.
I'd stare into your eyes,and,
without a single word,
you'd know how much I love you.

If I could spend a night with you,
I'd hold you in my arms
thewhole night long...
and I'd make passionate love to you.

If I could spend my life with you,
I'd try to make you happy.
I'd always be there for you,
wiping away your tears
whenyou're sad or blue,
and every day,
I'd tell you
how much
I cherish you
and our beautiful love.

Letters of Love.......

Within our hearts,.................
The ones we love.................
Are never really gone.......
In spirit and in memory.....
Their legacy lives on........

ØíçÈÙÞføBZ

നീ അന്നു നല്‍കിയ ചിത്രങ്ങള്‍ ഒക്കെയും
ചായം പടര്‍നിന്നു അവ്യക്തം ആകവെ
സുഖം എഴും പഴയൊരു നൊംബരം ആകന്‍
പിന്നെയും പൊരുവതെന്തിനാണൂ നീ .......

nostalgia.....

kuttikalathey nostalgia........

Ammumayudey kathakal,Puthiya uniformintey manam.Ammamantey naaranga mittayi....kaalil vanna chorikal..... idavittulla pani.... ammayudey swanthanam....achantey aana kali... muthu maalakal, plastic valakal... pinney entey maniyuduppum, kitty paavayum thanki paavayum......

jeevithathil kaathiruppu nalkunna shoonayatha.......

Kaathririppu nalkunna madhuram????

Kaathrippu tharunna vedana.....!!!!

Avasanikkatha kaathirippu


Odvilathey kaathirippu


Pratheekshichathu varaano... varathirikkaano???

manglish editorial

Nakshnathra lokathintey ithirivelichathil........

Kaalam nimishangal aakunna nerathu.........

Ninney valam vaichu athramel aardramaayi...... aardramayi.....

pranayam......

jeeevitham........

...........

Invisible men

She felt so lonely,......
crazily lonely.....Her need for conversations.....But only when shes' lonely, for her man....She sees faces manly faces........Only when she goes places, in her dreams......Her man takes her for granted .......Every lonely little day She has her hot fevers But .....only when she is lonely That is why, when she cryThose hot flames of love just die.......Leaving her lonely,........ ever so lonely........God only knows how lonely, .......love can be.......Yes Lord..... shes' the victim of invisible Men!!!!

IF U FORGET ME BY PABLO NERUDA

I want you to know one thing.
You know how this is:
if I lookat the crystal moon,
at the red branchof the slow autumn at my window,
if I touchnear the fire
the impalpable ashor the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,aromas, light, metals,were little boats
that sailtoward those isles of yours that wait for me.
Well, now,if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of bannersthat passes through my life,
and you decide to leave me at the shoreof the heart
where I have roots,
rememberthat on that day,at that hour,
I shall lift my armsand my roots will set offto seek another land.
Butif each day,each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love,
beloved,
and as long as you live
it will be in your armswithout leaving mine

Rain......

When it rains.........
The soft grey sky.......
Drifts to the ground
Brown rivulets
Trickle awayTrickle away
Washing sadness down
Weather vanesWeep and turn
Weep and turn
Forgetting in the damp and grey
That by and by
The sun will shine
Sun will shineBy
and by
The sun will shine.